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🐶 ([personal profile] sweats) wrote2017-01-23 07:33 pm
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[ week one ➝ hannibal ]

[ The afternoon was honestly, a blur. He remembers talking to Ezio, curt and to the point and trying not to readily admit his reasons for this. He remembers putting together a sandwich and being annoyed that he ate something that Hannibal hadn't cooked for him. He remembers trying not to focus on Hannibal outside for a while before realizing that if he was going to do this, he'd need supplies.

So, there was a moment where Will left the hotel again on a straight shot to the General Store. He didn't look in the way of Hannibal and instead kept his eyes down and his stride direct. He wasn't sure what he would find there but he's thinking, vaguely, of Molly, which hurts in a way he doesn't quite want right now. He puts his frustrations into searching, thinking of what Molly enjoyed here. She liked candles and tea, of soft soaps and herbs that filled up their steamy bathroom and made even Will feel drowsy with contentment. He remembers sharing those times with her, of dozing with his nose pressed into her hair and soft music filling the room.

He doesn't quite realize he's back at the room until he's standing there with a pack of candles, some bath oils, and pockets full of herbs. It's not quite losing time but... but it's a near thing. He looks out the window to see Hannibal and Percy, talking to each other in the middle of their work.

Will is here though and he's committed and he's staying the -- well, he's not exactly staying the night but he is spending a while on Hannibal's couch without any urge to leave. He gets to work soon after, setting the bathroom up and going downstairs to put on some tea. It takes some effort and Will nearly abandons the venture altogether but in the end, everything is prepared just around the time Will spots Hannibal finishing and heading back to the hotel.

He hates this. He hates this. Why did he offer? What possessed him to do this?

When Hannibal finally gets there, the bathroom door is closed but even the outer room smells good from the bath, like lavender and herbal tea and warm milk. The tea Will picked is, of course, chamomile and Will sits on the couch, mug in hand and looking like he's been holding his breath much too long. He bites out immediately instead of a greeting -- ]


I changed rooms with Ezio for the night.

[ God damnit. ]
sating: (karl summons his army)

[personal profile] sating 2017-01-24 01:48 am (UTC)(link)
[ It's far from the first time he's buried a body, and as often happens when Hannibal displays some kind of odd, questionable knowledge, he's almost disappointed that no one questions it. It's a strange feeling, because it's not exactly that he wants to be caught, but there is something to be said for liking a challenge. When people catch onto the fact that Hannibal knows too much even for a psychiatrist-once-surgeon, it gets more entertaining for him. But when people accept his grave-digging and his endurance at face value... Ah, well. He has no illusions here that they'll learn the truth in time. He can only be grateful that he didn't have to bury Tiara too, otherwise digging her up again later would be rather annoying.

He stops in the hall once he enters it, and his hand hovers against the wall lightly like he's hesitating. For anyone watching, it would be a reaction like an odd sound had caught his attention, since he's attentive, but curious. It's not a sound, though. It's a smell. He's hardly forgotten about Will's blurted out offer, but he's still rather surprised that Will actually seems to have... followed through. And so there's a moment where Hannibal stops, closes his eyes, and breathes in slowly, half-savoring this moment, and half-committing it to memory.

But it is only a moment's pause, lest Will actually hear that he paused at all and was weird about it. There's at least a familiarity between them enough that he doesn't feel the need to knock, because Will will know that Hannibal already knows he's there. But when he opens the door with a soft smile, it rather quickly turns to surprise. ]


...Well.

[ This was also unexpected. Hannibal steps inside and closes the door after himself, though as he looks to the Hannibal, he pauses, shakes his head, then looks to Will again. ]

I'm glad that he agreed. I'm also surprised that you asked.
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[personal profile] sating 2017-01-24 05:14 am (UTC)(link)
[ Hannibal notices that Will's gaze is intently on him, but as always, it doesn't bother Hannibal. If anything, he quietly accepts it, because he can objectively understand that Will would have concerns or doubts, even having accepted their situation. Though the 'situation' isn't this town. Like himself, Hannibal can imagine that this is secondary compared to moments like this. Personally, Hannibal doesn't imagine this town would ever be able to exceed the way his interest has been captured by Will Graham, no matter the sort of stakes tangled into it.

He's all the more certain of that with the pause.

As always with Will's lapses into silence, Hannibal is patient—curious, but not pushing. Will says that he "saw him" and Hannibal tilts his head very lightly to the side. The gesture itself clearly asks "who," but he verbalizes it too. ]


Saw who, Will?

[ Hannibal has a guess, but, hey. Will has a track record with seeing people that aren't actually there, so better ask...

His eyes follow the line of Will's gesture, briefly to the door, but he's not surprised by it. His lips do quirk up in a smile when Will admits it, since he is touched, in a way, but he turns his attention back. He would genuinely like the bath, since a problem with his "hobbies" is that they do tend to be messy, but he'd also like to put his attention here. At least so long as Will would allow it before withdrawing again. ]


I must say, I'm glad for it. Your impulsiveness is quite kind to me. [ He has to joke about it first, but seeing how Will's gaze flickers down to his hands, Hannibal holds one of them up to look at it himself. ] Are you picturing blood instead?
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ok dear everyone reading on unlock this shit is why tiara got chopped into cubes

[personal profile] sating 2017-01-24 05:54 am (UTC)(link)
I have to ask. Not as your psychiatrist, but as— [ There's a beat in the conversation, however small, because even Hannibal isn't sure what to call them. He'd called them friends, joked about eloping, but when it's only the two of them, there's no word that seems to encompass what they are. But though he dislikes it, he gives up a bit of eloquence for the sake of not lingering on that question too long. ] —someone who sees you.

[ He's toying with his words here, pulling both at that idea that none of this is real (though he does know it's real enough), but also how Hannibal had seen that dark part of Will and helped pull it to the surface. He can see the latter in how Will's attention shifts. It's easy for him to guess what Will sees, not as a hallucination, but as fantasy.

He rubs his hands on his shirt idly. There's no handkerchief in his outfit right now, but there's a sense he's trying to clean his hands. ]


That is the idea. Going so far that not even the most dutiful of detectives will want to follow.

[ He's cleaning his hands because after he says that, Hannibal reaches out to Will. It's funny, and he realizes it, because he had never hesitated to bloody him before. But with dirt, he's apparently more tender and careful. He takes a step forward to close that distance between them, and so long as Will allows it, he'll to put a hand on his face. Hannibal gently cups his cheek, but even his touch is tenuous, as if he too is wondering when they would hit the water and this moment would vanish. ]

But you could have it now too, you know. To me, this place is farther from our troubles than Cuba.
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tiara got eaten for this

[personal profile] sating 2017-01-24 09:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Neither could I.

[ There's a slight double-meaning in his words there, but simply put as it is, it's probably too obscured for anyone but Hannibal to know it. He couldn't in the sense that he agrees with Will, that separation was the last thing he wanted. But he also couldn't in the sense that he's felt that way for a long time now. He couldn't bear the separation, and so he had turned himself in knowing full well that there was a possibility that he would never leave wherever justice would decide to send them. Only a possibility, because even then, as he had knelt in the snow looking at Will, not Jack Crawford, he knew that one day Will would return to him.

He had hoped it would be like this, too.

His breathing is slow and very calm as Will moves his hand, only taking a deeper breath when Will presses that kiss against his hand. Again, he closes his eyes, if only briefly. He had wanted to savor the moment earlier of that realization that Will was waiting for him, but with this gesture, he's sure that he wants to remember these moments. It's another room in his palace, and when he opens his eyes again, it's with an affectionate smile. A disproportionate number of those rooms seem to be about Will Graham, at least by comparison to any other person.

When Will draws his hand away, Hannibal looks at his own hand briefly, but lets it drop back to his side. His eyes are undoubtedly glassy with the fondness he feels in that moment, but the corners of his eyes do show just a bit more of a wry smile at Will's offer. ]


Naturally. I wouldn't want to waste your efforts.

[ It's also fairly genuinely flattering, and that's not something that Hannibal tends to feel about other peoples' gestures. He walks towards the bathroom, and the actual answer comes with a slight nod. ]

I do not need it. But I would be grateful for it.
sating: (now label the nipple "Cuba")

[personal profile] sating 2017-01-29 08:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[ There's a moment where Hannibal does pause to look at the bathroom in full. He's taking in it, naturally, which is absolutely no surprise considering the sort of perfect detail that Hannibal tends to remember everything with, but that's not why he lingers. More than that, he's struck by the care of this in a more general sense. He's never asked for it, so it's never something that particularly mattered to him, but this is a gesture he's never been given. The novelty strikes him.

Will speaks as he resumes undressing himself, clearly not hesitant at all about doing so. The dress shirt is set aside, not even with care, considering it's filthy, and his undershirt pulled off after. The Verger brand is of course still there, but it's more faded now by a few years. It's just as much a part of him as any of his other scars, and he's not particularly self-conscious about any of them either. He's been silent as Will speaks, patiently waiting for him to finish, but his answer comes easily. More easily than Will's could, most likely, but this is also something that Hannibal has been considering far longer than Will. ]


I haven't given the clarification because I have none to provide. What I need and what I want are one and the same, and I have it. For a while, though the moment of change I would have a difficult time pinpointing.

[ He looks back to Will pointedly, but it's with a soft, fond smile. ]

This is all I want and need. You, as you are.

[ It's very sappy, to say the least, but it's also genuine. So long as they've known each other, Hannibal has never really wanted much more from Will. Sometimes he was curious about what Will would do in situations, once, he had offered Will an outstretched hand to live a life like this earlier, but those have all settled now. His intellectual curiosity has quieted, and though it wasn't quite the same as that first time he had offered, Hannibal thought Will had taken the hand as they'd embraced on the cliff's edge. His desires had been satisfied in that moment. So much so that he had no problem falling.

Though, to the second question, he turns his back to Will again slightly as he continues undressing. They're definitely going to have this conversation where Hannibal is just completely nude, but, hey. Not te first time he's had serious conversations with his dick out. Actually, it happens a lot, relatively speaking. ]


So, I would give you the same courtesy. You can take from me whatever it is you need and want. I would not have put it quite this way, but for the purpose of this conversation, I was quite willing to give you my life. [ Because if he'd wanted to, he imagined he could have probably stopped them from tumbling off the cliff. But he hadn't. ] What would you take, Will?
sating: (cogito ergo titty)

[personal profile] sating 2017-02-12 03:27 am (UTC)(link)
[ That "everything" almost gets Hannibal to pause, as if he were uncertain that he'd heard it. It shouldn't be a surprise at all, considering he had been willing for so long to give it. In fact, when he heard of Will coming to Italy to find him, he'd thought in his heart that perhaps that was Will returning it. It was doubtlessly Will returning his feelings, responding to the poetry that Hannibal had ben writing for him from the first time he left the girl on the stag, and yet, that was always the thing with the two of them. They spoke in vague words, in ones not entirely their own. Art, philosophy, theology, all of them mixed together to create the language of how they expressed their feelings, and each time, there were meanings to pick out and meanings to consider.

But for an absolute, and for how Will continues— It takes his breath away.

Quite literally, as it turns out, because there's a pause in the rise and fall of Hannibal's chest as he stands at the tub's edge. His eyes grow glassy, as they often do when he and Will share these more delicate conversations, but as always, he manages to hold back the tears that threaten to come forth. He feels-- happy. Happy, and overwhelmed, all at once, and as he releases that breath, he turns back to Will. His smile is genuine, if wry, because he's repeating words he's said before. ]


It's all I've ever wanted for both of us.

[ It's a simple response, but for once, he doesn't need to add much more or steep it in their poetry. He continues to undress, and it's only once he starts to step into the tub and sink into the water that he speaks again. ]

So it's no question. I'll consider the cliff our engagement, so to speak. [ Though he adds wryly after a moment while he settles ] Or perhaps eloping would be a better word.
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[personal profile] sating 2017-02-18 02:25 am (UTC)(link)
[ As Will starts to undress too, Hannibal doesn't watch. He's not indifferent to it (quite the opposite, actually), but there are different sensations that he's taking in with his eyes closed. The scent of everything here will certainly burn itself into his memory, from the gentle, romantic herbs, to that light scent of Will's aftershave, to the dirt on his own person. There's the warm water against his skin, the texture of the thoughtful pillow against his neck, and perhaps most of all, he thinks, the sound of Will's voice.

He thinks of something wry for a moment, a "I'm glad you haven't changed your mind," because it would be impossible at this point. It would be sincere from anyone else, but between the two of them, it was a joke. They both knew that they were inexorably intertwined. The cliche was that until death do they part, but clearly, by being here, they went beyond even that. Even in his most romantic imaginings, he couldn't have dreamed of this. Hannibal may know that this isn't technically death, but considering how they arrived here, he could hardly think of it as anything but.

He opens his eyes again as Will draws up, though his eyes stay directed to the ceiling as if he were looking up at the stars instead. He almost says something romantic and poetic, but Will speaks first. The comment draws a laugh out of him that's followed by a half-wry quirk of his lips, though it's short-lived. It could hardly stay on his face for that kind of question, but as was often the case with Hannibal, there's little hesitation in his answer. There never is when he's faced with difficult questions. ]


Because you couldn't stay. You always knew.

[ Hannibal speaks with such certainty about Will and how he feels or thinks, but really, when hasn't he? He's always known Will's thoughts. Even if he was the one to put them there in the first place. ]

Jack Crawford would have always returned to ask for your help. Circumstance aligned that when he did, it would free both of us.

[ He turns his head lightly to look down at Will, and though he's tempted to reach out and offer a comforting hand to touch him, he refrains from it. It's his own desire more than Will's, and with this question in the air, he's more delicate. ]

And, to be honest, I wanted to see you. [ He won't lie about that, at least... Though he does ask a question in return. ] Did it feel like a long three years, Will?